Thursday, January 6, 2011

Welcome to the new year - Thoughtful Thursday

This year started in a weird way. One of the fourth grade girls in The Boys' class lost her mother. On New Years Eve. She had a seizure overnight and never woke up.

If you are new here (and I have NO IDEA why you would be), I have a 2nd and 4th grader, and they are in the same class, in public school, and they do not have wildly dissparate learning abilities, it's a really AWESOME COOL program. Want to know more? Go HERE. Oh, and I am the Freckly Red Head in the video on that sight.

Also, we were in a really bad accident a couple of summers ago that involved The Dude having a seizure behind the wheel, and ambulances, and hospitals, and and and... So you can imagine what kind of emotions this is bringing up for The Boys and for me as well. The Youngest has taken to sleeping with Beary again, and The Oldest had a bedwetting incident. The girl at school and her Father have asked that the kids leave her alone, and not talk about it, which makes it hard as well. I've been in a weird place about all of this. Felling badly for the family, trying to help The Boys navigate the situation with empathy. Also trying to help other parents navigate wanting to help but not really being able to.

This has triggered a great deal of self examination, life reassessment - the things I usually do at this time of year anyway and it's just gotten more important. I've had weird and migrating chest pain (like a pinched nerve) since a week before Christmas. I've got some dear friends with breast cancer, have had a heart attack, and noticed that the pain is present/worse when I spend too much time focused on lack. As a result, I've started journaling my gratitude daily. It is much better to focus on everything I have to be grateful for, than worried about what I can't get.

Take a Moment - Right now, and send a prayer, a good vibe, or healing, helpful and loving energy. My heartfelt hopes for good health to you and everyone.

People on my list this week:
Audrey (US) - Is making end of life decisions. Still in chemo, but it is ROUGH.
Diane - Was featured in one of my Wicked Wednesday posts, and has triple negative breast cancer. She starts chemo tomorrow.
H, R, F, NL - All lost a parent during the last weeks of last year. All need your vibes for clarity and peace.

Love those you are with, hug them, tell and show them of your love.


Audrey said...

J9 - I am so sorry to hear of the child's Moms death. There is NEVER a good time to lose a parent, but somehow it seems so, so wrong when the loss is suffered by a small child. My thoughts and prayers are with them, and with everyone else who is effected by it.
Ahhh...gratitude journals! Such a good thing, they are!

Jeanette said...